1.6 pds

I lost 1.6 pounds this week and a half inch off my hips. This is good, but for the last two days I have had some stomach issues (see my last post). I am feeling better today, but am still off a bit. I am very optimistic that I can get to 180 before my cruise in March. I would love to be at 175, but I am doing my best and don't want to mess myself up trying to loose faster. I have done that many times in the past. When you cut down your food by too much, you end up having a binge. I think your body goes into shock or something, at least mine does.

I have been trying to sleep more for the last couple of days to get my stomach working like normal again and I have had the most bazaar dreams. I keep having dreams of wearing a bikini or that I am so fit and thin everyone keeps commenting on it. So weird, I wonder why I am having these dreams?

Anyway, if any of you watched the "Biggest Loser" last night I thought it was a good moment when the brown team was watching the collage of themselves and the food and felt disgusted that they were talking so gleefully about the junk food they eat. I often feel like that now myself. Why did I like it so much? Why was it such a pleasurable experience to stuff myself? I guess I feel differently about food at the moment. I feel eating like that and gaining weight just isn't worth it anymore. Have I changed for the better? I guess we will see. I really think I have, but you never know if your food addictions will return when life throws you a curve ball.