Weight maintain

I maintained my weight this week but did not lose like I wanted to. I did exercise 5 times this week so I am proud of myself for getting that in and doing my farthest distance this week on the treadmill. I once again need to lose. I am up a lot more than I want to be, so I would like to get down...as well as lose another 10 pounds. I have always wanted that. I really wonder why it isn't happening? I do need to get my thyroid levels checked soon to see if they are in normal range. I have not gone back since my bad level was checked and I needed more medication. I can't believe it has almost been 6 weeks that I have been on the new meds, but I have a lot less anxiety and feel a lot better..so my suspicion is that it is regulated. But I don't know for sure.

Nothing else really all that new except for puppy is in her 12 weeks stage of terror. She was actually quite good last night, I hope that lasts.

Friday, finally.

It is Friday..finally. It is supposed to be 80 degrees today! That would be our first 80 degree day, and I am stuck inside at work. I do plan to go home for lunch and let the puppies out, but I would love to be outside today. Anyways, this week has started out well for exercising. My week starts with Wednesday and I exercised on Wednesday (instead of yoga), and yesterday. I plan on taking this evening off because we usually eat dinner and go grocery shopping on Fridays. I know we lead a very exciting life..but I have to say I really like it. It allows us to have some good meals on weekend and not go out to eat, like we are sometimes tempted to do. It is all about our healthy lifestyle change and eating out is not very healthy..or we rarely pick a healthy choice.

It's only Wednesday?

I am back down under 185 again. I wrote down everything I ate last week, but I have to say I didn't exercise as much as I should of. This week is TOM, and I didn't feel all that great the last few days. Things are finally a bit less stressful or I am just getting used to it all! The puppy is really not learning the whole potty training thing lately, which is a bit stressful. She is going to training in a little less than a month. I wish it was sooner, but it was the only classes we could get into. I really hope that helps with things. I know she is a puppy, but some of her behaviors are not good.

My goals for the next week are to continue to write down everything I eat..accountability that I need, and exercising more. I did the minimum this week and I want to do 5 to 6 days of exercise this week. I also want to bring my big dog to the park more, the pups can't go until after she is vaccinated in May.

Sugar is very strange

The weather is finally starting to be nice here and Saturday was great. Unfortunately, it is raining most days this week. Anyway, I had many "treats" this weekend and wondered what my tie was to them while I was eating them. Sometimes I wonder if eating this ice cream is really all that enjoyable? I wonder if I am psychologically addicted to eating sweets because it is just something I have always done? It is all just a thought because I found myself thinking obsessively about candy this weekend while out having fun with the bf. Why did I think about sweets while out having fun? I have no idea. I also gave myself a chance to eat some of the things I was thinking of, and ended up not eating any of it. I think I am going a little crazy lately..or something. It is all so strange. If I end up figuring out my weirdness I will write it here....I need to think about it more.

Looking for balance

I have gained too much. I really need to buckle down and get this off. I know I can do it! The good thing out of it all is that my measurements remain the same, isn't that weird? My pants are still fitting me, but I do feel a bit bloated in the middle stomach area. I admit that I have been eating too much and I have been using food for stress relief. I have had so many changes in my life lately. I haven't been all that balanced. I am looking to bring balance back into my life and that includes a more balanced weight. I am still getting used to the changes at my job and of course the puppy. We have had her for a little over a week. She is growing and changing constantly and it is stressful when she is naughty or won't listen. Easter was also a challenge since it was Sunday and I had probably eaten all of my flex points plus some by that time. I don't know, because for the last couple of weeks I haven't written down my food intake. This is a super important thing for me. I need to keep track because I always under estimate what I eat. I have been still exercising, but I would like to ramp that up also.

I am trying not to freak out about my weight and to try to just keep the mind set that I can lose it again. It is just going to take some time for me to get used to the changes in my life and let balance come into play.

Vacation and a puppy

I am back, I totally took an impromptu vacation due to the fact that we adopted a puppy! So with the Easter vacation I got from work I took another 3 days off. That was the greatest because I got to spend a lot of time with the puppy. I am okay with being back to work today and I really need to get back into my routine. I wasn't all that great with eating and exercising during my vacation. Even though I had over a week off, exercising was not at the top of my list of things to do. I wish that would of been different but I can't go back and do it over again. I am a little frightened about weighing myself tomorrow, but I will anyway. I have been at really high numbers lately and Sunday didn't help. We made pot roast, Yorkshire pudding and these millionaire shortbread things we saw on food network. They were all butter and very decadent. I am crossing my fingers for my weigh in tomorrow, but even though I will be shocked by the number I know I can get it back off. I can! This article was helpful for me to read from Bob Greene and his Best Life newsletter.

• Holidays are a treat: Passover and Easter are a time to connect with loved ones and celebrate as a family. But you know what's not so sweet? The sinking feeling that you may have overdone it with chocolate/jelly beans/Matzo balls/[insert other high-calorie indulgence here]. Don't be discouraged! A few days or even a week of less-than-perfect eating won't derail you.



• Although the scale may inch up during or after a holiday, keep in mind that weight fluctuations are perfectly normal. To gain an actual pound of body fat, you'd have to consume a lot of calories: 3,500 to be exact—and this is on top of what you normally eat in a given day. And even if the number on the scale does climb, that doesn't always mean that you've gained actual body fat. When you step on a scale, you're weighing muscle, bone, body fat, water (one gallon weighs eight pounds), undigested food, and waste that your body hasn't eliminated yet.



• And don't forget that some foods weigh more, even when they don't provide more calories. For example, one half cup of black beans weighs about three ounces, but one tablespoon of olive oil only weighs about one-half ounce, even though they have the same number of calories. If you eat foods that are "heavier" due to their water or fiber weight, you may weigh more on the scale until all of the food has been digested and the waste has been eliminated.



• So don't stress about what or how much you ate. Instead, focus on getting back on track with your workouts and healthy-eating plan.

Friday again!

It is Friday and things are a bit quieter this week. I hope by about a month I will be settled in and more relaxed. I went to bed at 9:30 last night, so I feel pretty good today. I do think that is early, but I am finding that I need about 9 hours most of the time. I am also hoping to get a workout in tonight after work.

I haven't been posting every day, but I will try to post as much as I possibly can for myself so that I can continue on my maintenance and hopefully one day...further weight loss. I am completely addicted to nuts lately..namely almonds and just bought a new cereal with almonds in it. I don't know why I all of a sudden like them so much. I just have to be careful not to eat a ton at a time.

Relax and breath and eliminate stress

Up again with weight and I need to get this under control. The pizza on Sunday did not help and I was so tired last night I didn't work out. I am going to try to de-stress myself and that is my goal for the week. I don't want to be stressed out and constantly worrying about things. I cannot control what happens in my life and I just try my best to be positive. The new department at work seems more stressful, but I do have control over how I react to it. I just need to get used to my surroundings more and I am hoping that my anxiety will subside. I have yoga tonight and I may start doing it more because it is so relaxing.