After Memorial Day weekend

I took some time off around Memorial Day and I was busy. I did not get to sleep in at all and am really tired today. I can't stop yawning. Anyway, I have been trying to get my weight down, but I had a bit of a gain over memorial day. I had a good time with what we ate and tried my best to be as active as I could be. I am hoping for a short week this week! I am taking off to go golfing with the bf on Friday. I hope the weather is nice. I hope I can find some things to post about today.

Have to make permanent changes

I haven't been posting much at all lately due to stress and being busy. I also just can't seem to get a handle on my eating...and not to blame others, but I have been invited and been the host of too many eating get togethers. I love that Monday is Memorial Day and I get an extra day off from work, but I am hoping I can make some better choices with food on those days. For a belated Mother's Day that we hosted this weekend we made her a chocolate cake (her request) and we just finished it for leftovers. I have been eating a piece everyday with ice cream. This is not a big help with losing or maintaining weight! I also have the added bonus of TOM this week, which also makes my appetite a bit crazy.

I went to the doctor for my annual physical yesterday and I asked her if it is normal for my appetite to increase with an increase of my hypothyroid medication..and she said I shouldn't have a larger appetite. It is weird because when I started the more than double amount of medication to re-regulate my thyroid my appetite went up bigtime. I went from not having much of an appetite to a huge one..eating probably double what I did before. Is this just all in my head? I don't know, but I hope I can get things together once again. A big note to self is that having a healthy lifestyle takes dedication and permanent changes.....permanently!

Not having money does suck

I am happy that it is Friday again. I had Wednesday off, but the week just felt long to me. Anyway, I hope to get a workout in after work today. The bf is going home to let the doggy out so I can eat lunch here and leave at 4. I want to promptly go home and jump on the treadmill for a half hour. I just haven't had the motivation to work out that much this week. I have been doing a lot of yoga because I have been trying to use up my package. It has an expiration date and if you don't use them you loose them.

I also think about how great it would be to join the Y. I would love to have more variety in my exercise..but I just don't have the money. I need to pay off my debt and then get another car...so I feel a little hopeless that I will never have extra money to join. It is kind of expensive to join the Y unless you have a large family. I also have joined gyms in the past and didn't go much. I have been taking a new route home from work to avoid the traffic jam...and I drive right past the Y. Wouldn't it be nice.

A permanent lifestyle change

I am a little disappointed that I have to weigh in tomorrow. I am going to a baseball game tonight, a party with one of the bf's clients. Of course I am going to eat things I shouldn't and of course I will be eating a dinner full of processed foods, preservatives and probably trans fat. And to add to all of this...my weight will probably be scary tomorrow morning. I am considering a skip on the weigh-in this week..but is that just being in denial or saving me the bad feelings about it?

I also have the day off tomorrow to get some service done on my car...so I just may skip the whole weigh-in just this once. I hate saying or doing it because I am scared that it will lead to me abandoning my weight loss efforts completely. I like being this weight and I am not going to gain! I just have way too many fears because I have gained the weight back before. Uggh, I just need to rebalance myself..and hope that my motivation returns.

Can't I just rewind?

I do feel that my interest has waned in losing additional weight. It seems that I have just not cared about losing..and am just trying to maintain. I know I said this before, but I think I just had too many changes at once in my life. I am still trying to get used to the new office location, the thyroid (not regulated yet) and the puppy. These are not bad things and the move and puppy have enhanced my life in many ways...but I just cannot seem to work up the motivation to start up a weight loss program again. I am hoping in the next month or so I will work up some more motivation. I have to really want to do it and that drive is just not there.

My goal is start jogging more..but what I really need to do is watch the sweets and the portion sizes. It is the food that is really getting me. I am just plain and simply eating too much.