Stressed

I have been stressed for the last couple of days. Drama at work, the weather and the holidays have made me exhausted. I didn't exercise last night because I was so exhausted. I know it is the best thing to do, but I don't know how people exercise when they are really stressed. It is currently freezing rain outside and the boiler is broken here, so it is kind of cold in this office. I am doing a countdown to Christmas and it just seems like it cannot happen fast enough, even though I don't have people's presents yet. I plan on exercising tonight, then taking it easy and going to bed early. Next week is my last full week of work, then I am off for Christmas vacation...yeah! I plan on painting our room, unless I get really lazy. I really want to put some effort into making our room special, and it gives me something active to do during the break.

The month of December

I had a really fun weekend, filled with a lot of food..but isn't that what December is for? I had some strange notion that December would not be a hard month for me. Where did I get that idea from? I have parties every Friday until Christmas and they all involve food. I am trying very hard to eat small portions, but when it comes to the desserts...that goes out the window a bit. I love the desserts at Christmas...so hopefully I can get my fill and then I won't crave them ever again. Yeah, right.

Anyways, I thought I would make a conscious effort to exercise this month...but that hasn't always been that great either. The last 2 weeks, I haven't been at my optimum amount. I will keep trying..and my goal is maintenance only this month, and I am confident that I can do that. Secretly I still want to loose...but who doesn't? I hope after Christmas I will get the motivation to go crazy and loose 20 pounds...but I would be happy with 5. I also asked for ice skates for Christmas, which I think is good exercise. Perhaps I can start doing that for a little extra activity this winter. I wish skiing wasn't so expensive...and no one will downhill ski with me. I must find a ski buddy. I will start looking.

Getting ready for weekend

It is Friday and really snowy outside. It took a lot longer to get to work today. I am going to a surprise party tonight for a friend and I hope it is a lot of fun, but I do have to go to it in a lot of snow. What shoes to wear is my only question? I want to wear my Ugg boots because they are so comfy and warm, but I may dare to wear less of a shoe based on wardrobe. I have a lunch today to go to and snacks and drinks tonight..I hope I don't go overboard on either one of them. The bf also wants to go to the china buffet on Saturday, then we have to go to his grandma's for a nice fatty dinner. Too much eating this weekend! I did not plan on this fork in the road, I just need to remember to eat small portions.

Guilt not related to food...finally

After last night, I think I could easily replace eating with shopping. I went to the mall to get Christmas presents and to look at things I want for a list I make for the bf. I have to say that this is dangerous for me. I find things to buy for myself and I always make an excuse to buy them..such as "nothing fits me", "that has a hole in it", "I gave that to Goodwill"....all that stuff. I must stop myself. I have to cut myself off. I have bought too much and now I am looking for stuff to take back in order to make myself feel better (and stuff I don't think I will wear). The real problem is that I finally look good in just about everything. Not a problem..but a problem for the wallet. Then I turn on the radio or the TV or look on the Internet and see that several thousand more people lost their jobs this week. How can I not feel bad, awful and guilty for shopping when others don't even have jobs?

I am going to make an extra effort this year to give more to food banks, goodwill, and anything I can. I hate that this is happening and people have to suffer. I really hope that America can turn this around. I hope Obama can make a difference in inflation and help Americans live more equally with less poverty.

Up .2 after thanksgiving

I guess the jogging I did on Sunday and Monday helped me not gain a lot of weight this week. Whew, .2 is fine...even though I wish I didn't gain at all. I think I should try to up my cardio workouts this month, unless it starts to feel torturous. Sometimes I get lazy and don't want to jog and would rather walk. I know walking is good also, but for this month I probably could use the extra calorie burning of interval jogging.

My stress level lately has been amazingly low for this time of year, but I did get stressed out this morning because of work. I hate it when I let stress bother me, but I feel better now that I have had some alone time at lunch. I was suppossed to go to a meeting, but being with a lot of people seemed like too much for me. I think I am a true introvert.

A little fall from grace

So last night was a tough one for me. I have to say I haven't been going to bed as early as I should. Perhaps this has an effect on my eating...or I went crazy. Last night I tried to have a lighter dinner and then found myself digging into the sweets. I ended up eating rf cool whip (leftover) with chocolate graham crackers. I ate the entire package of crackers. I kind of don't feel that great today and I went about 4 points over...(I am guessing). I really need to stop with the sweets. I tried to compensate for it by doing a 45 minute super walk and jog. I have to say I am a little scared again to get on the scale, but I know I can get it off. I just have to keep up the exercise and try to get my food under control again. I threw away the cool whip, even though there was a lot left...so I wouldn't do that again.

Had so much fun

I totally had a really fun weekend. I did go a little crazy with eating, but isn't that what holidays are for? I guess I enjoyed it so much it is hard for me to feel guilty. I haven't weighed myself, but will on Wednesday. The guilt might hit me all then. We had a crazy amount of leftovers, and ate them almost everyday..with pumpkin pie. I love pumpkin pie. That might of been my favorite thing the whole weekend...that and the spinach dip I made. I did get so sick of thanksgiving leftovers that I begged the bf for pizza. It was delicious. I think with all the time off that perhaps the holidays are for going a little overboard with eating. It is really hard not to. I thought I would just eat a ton one day, but I ended up eating a ton for 3 days. I also have TOM this week to weigh in on...so I am not thinking this weigh in will be all that great. I just have to get some good work outs in because I didn't exercise either. I will just try to get back on track now and try to get back down. That is all I can do.