Muscle cars

So everything is going much better. I got a newer car and I think my bf is on the road to recovery. I didn't weigh myself for 2 weeks, mainly because I didn't want another thing to stress me out or put me in a bad mood. I am glad I didn't because my weight stayed basically the same. I wonder when I am going to trust myself and realize that as long as I keep exercising that I can keep my weight stable. I have been consistent with trying to at least do the bare minimum (3 x a week) with exercises. I also started a resistance/weight routine which I try to do 2 to 3 times a week. I need to add some muscle, and I know that takes time. I read that most women with consistent weight training can gain at maximum, 2 pounds of muscle every 6 months. I think that is great, and even 1 pound of muscle I would be grateful for.

Life good or bad

I haven't posted in a while. I have had some personal issues that have kept me from posting....and stress contributed to it. I have to say I haven't really been watching what I eat or exercising as much as I think I should. I have really slipped and need to get back on the horse again. I think that stress is hard for me personally to deal with. I actually don't know that I am stressed sometimes until I notice that my eating gets out of control. This is what has happened.

I have to say this week feels a bit less stressful already. I hope that I can get myself to stay stress free for at least this week, if not month. I am actually able to pay off one of my credit cards this month..so I think that deserves some congratulations to myself. Bravo..good job, your awesome!

Cars

So my shocks on my car broke in half yesterday while I was driving it home from work. I am going to fix it for now, but I desperately need another car. It is kind of stressful to be without a car even though my bf and I work pretty close to each other. Anyway, I hope that this stress will dissipate a bit so that my life can go back to the normal calmness that I once had. I lost a little this week, but seem to be stuck again in the 186 range. I have been working out 6 days a week for the last 4 weeks, so I hope to keep it up. I feel so much better and it is a great stress relief.

Weights

I have been lifting weights again this week. I plan to embark on 12 weeks of weight training to see if my body fat percentage ends up dropping any. I know that if you do what you always do..you get the same results. The 5 days of cardio with one weight training session just wasn't working for me. I was hoping I could drop more weight by doing all that cardio..but I just didn't. I am slowly creeping up. I hope to put on enough muscle so that I can have a little more leeway once in a while. I would not mind if I kept the same weight and put on more muscle..but I would rather drop weight and put on muscle..if that is possible. I can only try to see what happens. I do feel the weight training and I am sore most of the time. I look at working out now as something I need to challenge myself on more. You have to keep changing things up and you have to keep adding more weight to get better results. I guess I got stuck with my workouts, but that is so easy to do.

Money, Economy, Anxiety...it all sucks!

There is just too much going on in the worldwide economy and my own personal economy right now. I will be feeling the pinch of the economy soon in my own job and I gotta tell you it really sucks. I feel a sense of anxiety coming to work everyday. I so wish I could stop all this financial crisis from happening. I also have to stop listening to NPR, because it is super depressing. Yesterday they had more about Maddoff and had his victims talking about how they are surviving...and it is not well. These are people who were once pretty well off. It is so sad.

Anyway, I have decided to turn some of my anxious energy into something more positive. I am going to weight train more and up my protein consumption to try to decrease some of my body fat. I have body fat of an obese person according to my body fat scale. This is not something I am proud of, but I think it is a result of my liquid diet I did years ago. I lost so much of my muscle and I don't think I ever got any of it back. I also hope that this is a channel for my anxiety. I just can't take being so anxious anymore. I need to burn some of the energy off. If I am tired, I won't have energy to be anxious right? A win win as far as I see it. I will keep you updated.

Is it Friday yet?

It is Wednesday. I came down with some kind of stomach flu this weekend, which really sucked! I wish I could of enjoyed my weekend more. Anyway, I made up for not eating that much this weekend yesterday. I was so hungry and hot I had to stop for ice cream after work. There is very little ac at work and the ac in my car broke so it is super hot everywhere. I am a bit annoyed by it. Life is more enjoyable with ac in your car. Oh how I dream of a newer car with air! This week it is 90+ degrees and humid.

So I am reading a new book that I will post a review on as soon as I finish it. I am almost done and will probably finish it tonight. I am still hovering around 185 with my weight. I am hoping to start seeing lower number soon, but I didn't exercise much this week, some of it because I was feeling ill.

Friday

It is Friday and I am feeling good about my eating and exercise habits once again. We have gotten back to cooking and things feel less stressful. We went to the dog park last night and walked around instead of laying on the couch! It was super hot and humid but so much fun. I didn't even feel that tired afterward. It is so weird how you can be exhausted after work and think that you can't do anything....then you do something and you have more energy.

I am a little bummed because I forgot my beloved iPhone today. I so wish I could go home and get it. It is such a huge part of my life. I never thought I would be so attached to a phone. I just hope the day goes by fast because I need my phone and I also need the weekend.