Thursday, December 18, 2008

Merry Christmas

I had a good nights sleep last night and I feel good, but maybe it is because this is my last day of work and I have a break until January 5!! I also have way too many cookies on my desk. So anyway I am taking a break from my blog, it may be until January 5th, but I may get bored and try to sneak in some posts before then. I really need the break and I am going to paint our bedroom. I get excited about good changes, especially decorating. I just wish I had more money to do more. One day I will have the whole house the way I want it, then I will probably want to change it again. So Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to anyone who is reading or passing by this blog.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Starting to want the holidays to be over...really badly

Oh yes, I knew it was coming...a gain. I ate way too much yesterday, and that contributed to being back up. So all I can do once again is write down what I eat this week, and exercise as much as possible. The whole journaling food thing really helps me and I did not do it for the majority of last week. I have this week to bring things down and hope that Christmas doesn't blind side me. I will eat what I want in moderation, but I cannot go on a free for all. I know that I will gain if I do that, and I don't want to gain.

This Christmas has been a lot harder than last Christmas. I have relaxed a bit on my eating. I know I can't get away with doing that, but it is a struggle. I have cookies from a co-worker sitting on my desk right now...and more will be coming tomorrow. It is so hard not to eat them and it is so nice that they make them for me. I will honestly be glad when Christmas and New Years is over, because then people won't be contributing to my food problem. Not that it is at all their fault, I put the blame on myself.

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

Furnace down

I got home last night to discover our furnace was not working. It is super cold in the house, so cooking is not happening. We had hot dogs last night, but it is Tuesday and the day before my weigh in day..and I don't really want to eat out. I had a hard enough time already this weekend...I hate when things like this happen. I am hoping we can find the part to fix it today and get it to warm up the house tonight. It was one of the coldest days yesterday here...I think it was 10 degrees or something like that. Anyways, I can feel the stress coming upon me again. I really just don't want to be stressed right now. I need more time off...I wish Christmas break was this week..and not the next.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Too much

I have to say I had a little trouble this weekend with food. The month of December has been a huge partyfest for me. I did not plan for this, but how can you? So many people are asking us out for dinner and I am not able to choose the place. I really cannot believe that so many restaurants here still don't have healthy options. I went to a local place to eat with the family on Saturday night, and out of no healthy options opted to get a grilled chicken sandwich. I ordered it w/ no mayo and they put a crapload of mayo on it anyway. I managed to scrap most of it off, but still. I felt bloated and stuffed after I ate it. I kind of think it was swimming in butter to. They had no salads and their special was ribs, which everyone else got with fries. I did eat some fries too..and they were probably the greasiest fries I have had in a long time. I am afraid to weigh myself and I am hoping for an okay number this week. I also had the bf Christmas party with heavy heavy appetizers on Friday, then the bf talked me into the Chinese buffet on Saturday. Uggh, too much crap.

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Tired so tired

I am super tired today. I did not sleep last night due to a stomach ache. I woke up at 2 a.m. and couldn't get back to sleep until around 5:30 a.m., then I couldn't get up for work and arrived 15 minutes late. I am still tired after my morning latte. I am thinking I need to take some time. I am definitely off tomorrow, but I am even thinking this afternoon. When I am tired I eat a ton more to compensate for the lack of energy. That is why I try to take it easy. I also need to find a dress for the bf's Christmas party tomorrow. I thought I could wear jeans, but then he told me I couldn't. So I have nothing that fits me to wear. I have summer dresses that fit, but no winter dresses. I am so tired that I am not in the mood to shop. Yaaawwnnn.

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

Feeling hungry today

Okay, I did loose a little this week..but I am kind of tired of posting the little ups and downs of my weight. I am doing quite well maintaining and I just want to keep up with what I am doing throughout the holidays. Also, if you want to be added into this blog for comments...please don't include links and please do not solicit weight loss plans, or your comment will not be posted.

I am glad it is Wednesday mainly because I get Jimmy John's for lunch. That is my weekly get out lunch and I love the Turkey Tom w/ no mayo add cucumber. We had an ice storm last night so the roads are not very driveable. I am glad that JJ's is practically around the corner. Can you tell that I am hungry? Perhaps I need a snack. I like the feeling of hunger because it means I am operating on the energy my body needs....but then again it is really uncomfortable. A survival mechanism I know. I don't have much to blog about I am going to cut this short.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008


I have been stressed for the last couple of days. Drama at work, the weather and the holidays have made me exhausted. I didn't exercise last night because I was so exhausted. I know it is the best thing to do, but I don't know how people exercise when they are really stressed. It is currently freezing rain outside and the boiler is broken here, so it is kind of cold in this office. I am doing a countdown to Christmas and it just seems like it cannot happen fast enough, even though I don't have people's presents yet. I plan on exercising tonight, then taking it easy and going to bed early. Next week is my last full week of work, then I am off for Christmas vacation...yeah! I plan on painting our room, unless I get really lazy. I really want to put some effort into making our room special, and it gives me something active to do during the break.

Monday, December 8, 2008

The month of December

I had a really fun weekend, filled with a lot of food..but isn't that what December is for? I had some strange notion that December would not be a hard month for me. Where did I get that idea from? I have parties every Friday until Christmas and they all involve food. I am trying very hard to eat small portions, but when it comes to the desserts...that goes out the window a bit. I love the desserts at hopefully I can get my fill and then I won't crave them ever again. Yeah, right.

Anyways, I thought I would make a conscious effort to exercise this month...but that hasn't always been that great either. The last 2 weeks, I haven't been at my optimum amount. I will keep trying..and my goal is maintenance only this month, and I am confident that I can do that. Secretly I still want to loose...but who doesn't? I hope after Christmas I will get the motivation to go crazy and loose 20 pounds...but I would be happy with 5. I also asked for ice skates for Christmas, which I think is good exercise. Perhaps I can start doing that for a little extra activity this winter. I wish skiing wasn't so expensive...and no one will downhill ski with me. I must find a ski buddy. I will start looking.

Friday, December 5, 2008

Getting ready for weekend

It is Friday and really snowy outside. It took a lot longer to get to work today. I am going to a surprise party tonight for a friend and I hope it is a lot of fun, but I do have to go to it in a lot of snow. What shoes to wear is my only question? I want to wear my Ugg boots because they are so comfy and warm, but I may dare to wear less of a shoe based on wardrobe. I have a lunch today to go to and snacks and drinks tonight..I hope I don't go overboard on either one of them. The bf also wants to go to the china buffet on Saturday, then we have to go to his grandma's for a nice fatty dinner. Too much eating this weekend! I did not plan on this fork in the road, I just need to remember to eat small portions.

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Guilt not related to food...finally

After last night, I think I could easily replace eating with shopping. I went to the mall to get Christmas presents and to look at things I want for a list I make for the bf. I have to say that this is dangerous for me. I find things to buy for myself and I always make an excuse to buy them..such as "nothing fits me", "that has a hole in it", "I gave that to Goodwill"....all that stuff. I must stop myself. I have to cut myself off. I have bought too much and now I am looking for stuff to take back in order to make myself feel better (and stuff I don't think I will wear). The real problem is that I finally look good in just about everything. Not a problem..but a problem for the wallet. Then I turn on the radio or the TV or look on the Internet and see that several thousand more people lost their jobs this week. How can I not feel bad, awful and guilty for shopping when others don't even have jobs?

I am going to make an extra effort this year to give more to food banks, goodwill, and anything I can. I hate that this is happening and people have to suffer. I really hope that America can turn this around. I hope Obama can make a difference in inflation and help Americans live more equally with less poverty.

Wednesday, December 3, 2008

Up .2 after thanksgiving

I guess the jogging I did on Sunday and Monday helped me not gain a lot of weight this week. Whew, .2 is fine...even though I wish I didn't gain at all. I think I should try to up my cardio workouts this month, unless it starts to feel torturous. Sometimes I get lazy and don't want to jog and would rather walk. I know walking is good also, but for this month I probably could use the extra calorie burning of interval jogging.

My stress level lately has been amazingly low for this time of year, but I did get stressed out this morning because of work. I hate it when I let stress bother me, but I feel better now that I have had some alone time at lunch. I was suppossed to go to a meeting, but being with a lot of people seemed like too much for me. I think I am a true introvert.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

A little fall from grace

So last night was a tough one for me. I have to say I haven't been going to bed as early as I should. Perhaps this has an effect on my eating...or I went crazy. Last night I tried to have a lighter dinner and then found myself digging into the sweets. I ended up eating rf cool whip (leftover) with chocolate graham crackers. I ate the entire package of crackers. I kind of don't feel that great today and I went about 4 points over...(I am guessing). I really need to stop with the sweets. I tried to compensate for it by doing a 45 minute super walk and jog. I have to say I am a little scared again to get on the scale, but I know I can get it off. I just have to keep up the exercise and try to get my food under control again. I threw away the cool whip, even though there was a lot I wouldn't do that again.

Monday, December 1, 2008

Had so much fun

I totally had a really fun weekend. I did go a little crazy with eating, but isn't that what holidays are for? I guess I enjoyed it so much it is hard for me to feel guilty. I haven't weighed myself, but will on Wednesday. The guilt might hit me all then. We had a crazy amount of leftovers, and ate them almost everyday..with pumpkin pie. I love pumpkin pie. That might of been my favorite thing the whole weekend...that and the spinach dip I made. I did get so sick of thanksgiving leftovers that I begged the bf for pizza. It was delicious. I think with all the time off that perhaps the holidays are for going a little overboard with eating. It is really hard not to. I thought I would just eat a ton one day, but I ended up eating a ton for 3 days. I also have TOM this week to weigh in I am not thinking this weigh in will be all that great. I just have to get some good work outs in because I didn't exercise either. I will just try to get back on track now and try to get back down. That is all I can do.