Friday, December 11, 2009


I got sick. It sucks, I got a very bad cold and was out of it for most of the week. I am feeling better, but still not 100%. Anyway, you can guess that I haven't joined the YMCA yet. I plan on it this Sunday or Monday. I have not done any Christmas shopping yet either. I really can't believe it that it is the middle of December already.

Thursday, December 3, 2009


My plans for the YMCA were changed when the person bailed on me to go with a guest pass. You have to have a member with you for that. So I went anyway and inquired and toured the facilities. I think I was expecting it to be a little nicer, but it isn't a new building. They have a nice one downtown here, but it is out of my way. Maybe I can go to that one occasionally. It is nice you can go to any of them.

I thought it over and it is a financial commitment because you have to pay every month. It is $64 a month and I do think that is a little steep for 1 person but I am going to join anyway. I so need to just go and exercise after work and get it done with. When I go home there are too many distractions and I just never can get myself going anymore. This wasn't a problem before, I had way more motivation.

We have a lot of eating opportunities coming up and if I am exercising I would feel better and maybe be able to resist the temptation to keep pigging out. I have no idea, but the holidays really make it challenging to eat better.

Monday, November 30, 2009


So I haven't been around much. I had a lot going on in my life. My bf was very sick and we could not find out what was wrong with him, but finally we did. He got his gallbladder out 2 weeks ago. He is feeling a ton better and all is well. I also had some adjustment to my new work department. Anyway, I am freshly back after thanksgiving and would like to resume my blog. I have gained about 3 pounds but plan on getting it off asap! I haven't stopped exercising, but haven't been as diligent. So my plan now is to join a gym.

Tonight..with the help of my bf's sister, I plan on being a guest at our local YMCA. It is expensive to join to me, but it has a good variety of group classes that I would love to do to get my exercising mojo back. I hope I get to go...I may anyway if she bails on me..and just join. I have about 2 weeks off from work in December and I would love to make going to the gym a priority during that time. I so want to reach my goals of weight loss! My goal is just 10 pounds right now, so wish me luck!

Wednesday, September 9, 2009


I read another article from Judith Beck dealing with eating satisfation. I think it has some good tips that I need to remember more often!

Remind yourself:
• I’m probably just feeling unsatisfied, which is not a reason to overeat.
• Even if this IS true hunger, there’s no emergency here. I’ll be eating again in x hours.
• I deserve a lot of credit for eating only what I planned. (“It’s actually great that I’m stopping now.”)
• Stopping now means I’ll still be able to wear smaller-sized clothes, cross my legs, not feel like people are judging me because of my weight, feel comfortable meeting new people, etc.”
• The more I label and accept dissatisfaction, the easier it will become. The more I struggle against not being able to eat whatever I want, the worse I’ll be in the short-run and long-run.”
• Every instance of accepting dissatisfaction (“Oh, well”) is important and I deserve credit for accepting it.
• There’s nothing wrong with feeling dissatisfied. It’s nothing you need to “fix.”

And you’re not alone. Millions of people feel dissatisfied every time they go shopping because they’d like to buy things that they can’t. Maybe you do, too. They usually adopt an “Oh, well,” attitude. “Oh, well, I’d like to buy that bigger television but I don’t have enough money.” They accept the fact, and move on.

It’s the same with food. “Oh, well. I’d like to eat more but I can’t, not if my goal is permanent weight loss. I might as well accept that fact, and move on.” In the long run, to avoid chronic dissatisfaction, you may need to learn how to appreciate what you do have, especially non-tangible things such as family, friends, work, health, spirituality, fun, and so on. After reminding yourself of these things, immediately get busy doing an activity or task you’ve planned in advance to engage your attention elsewhere.

Never give up

I have been a slacker on posting, but I read a great article on the ups and downs of weight loss and here is some things to tell yourself when you weigh-in:

If I've Been Following My Plan

•It will be nice if my weight is down today but it's fine if it's up.
•Look where I am today compared to where I started!
•If it's up, it doesn't necessarily mean I did anything wrong and if I keep following my plan, it will come down again, until I hit maintenance.
•History has shown me that the number definitely goes up and down.
•I don't need to worry unless my weight goes up and continues to go up for several days in a row.

If I Haven't Been Following My Plan

•Okay, my weight will probably be up today and I will probably feel disappointed.
•I need to make this an "Oh, well," experience. "Oh, well, I don't like the fact that my weight is up but I need to accept it-without criticizing myself-and get problem-solving oriented."
•It's impossible to lose weight without making some mistakes along the way.
•Let me figure out what led to my going off plan-especially the sabotaging thoughts that got in the way-so I can avoid the situation in the future.
•If I get right back on track now, following my eating plan and using all my Diet Solution skills, I'll lose weight again.
•If I use this weight gain as an excuse to give up, I may never achieve the advantages of weight loss-feeling better, being healthier, etc.

(Now go read my list of reasons to lose weight and ask myself how important each one is to me.)

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Muscle cars

So everything is going much better. I got a newer car and I think my bf is on the road to recovery. I didn't weigh myself for 2 weeks, mainly because I didn't want another thing to stress me out or put me in a bad mood. I am glad I didn't because my weight stayed basically the same. I wonder when I am going to trust myself and realize that as long as I keep exercising that I can keep my weight stable. I have been consistent with trying to at least do the bare minimum (3 x a week) with exercises. I also started a resistance/weight routine which I try to do 2 to 3 times a week. I need to add some muscle, and I know that takes time. I read that most women with consistent weight training can gain at maximum, 2 pounds of muscle every 6 months. I think that is great, and even 1 pound of muscle I would be grateful for.

Monday, August 10, 2009

Life good or bad

I haven't posted in a while. I have had some personal issues that have kept me from posting....and stress contributed to it. I have to say I haven't really been watching what I eat or exercising as much as I think I should. I have really slipped and need to get back on the horse again. I think that stress is hard for me personally to deal with. I actually don't know that I am stressed sometimes until I notice that my eating gets out of control. This is what has happened.

I have to say this week feels a bit less stressful already. I hope that I can get myself to stay stress free for at least this week, if not month. I am actually able to pay off one of my credit cards this I think that deserves some congratulations to myself. Bravo..good job, your awesome!

Wednesday, July 22, 2009


So my shocks on my car broke in half yesterday while I was driving it home from work. I am going to fix it for now, but I desperately need another car. It is kind of stressful to be without a car even though my bf and I work pretty close to each other. Anyway, I hope that this stress will dissipate a bit so that my life can go back to the normal calmness that I once had. I lost a little this week, but seem to be stuck again in the 186 range. I have been working out 6 days a week for the last 4 weeks, so I hope to keep it up. I feel so much better and it is a great stress relief.

Wednesday, July 8, 2009


I have been lifting weights again this week. I plan to embark on 12 weeks of weight training to see if my body fat percentage ends up dropping any. I know that if you do what you always get the same results. The 5 days of cardio with one weight training session just wasn't working for me. I was hoping I could drop more weight by doing all that cardio..but I just didn't. I am slowly creeping up. I hope to put on enough muscle so that I can have a little more leeway once in a while. I would not mind if I kept the same weight and put on more muscle..but I would rather drop weight and put on muscle..if that is possible. I can only try to see what happens. I do feel the weight training and I am sore most of the time. I look at working out now as something I need to challenge myself on more. You have to keep changing things up and you have to keep adding more weight to get better results. I guess I got stuck with my workouts, but that is so easy to do.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Money, Economy, all sucks!

There is just too much going on in the worldwide economy and my own personal economy right now. I will be feeling the pinch of the economy soon in my own job and I gotta tell you it really sucks. I feel a sense of anxiety coming to work everyday. I so wish I could stop all this financial crisis from happening. I also have to stop listening to NPR, because it is super depressing. Yesterday they had more about Maddoff and had his victims talking about how they are surviving...and it is not well. These are people who were once pretty well off. It is so sad.

Anyway, I have decided to turn some of my anxious energy into something more positive. I am going to weight train more and up my protein consumption to try to decrease some of my body fat. I have body fat of an obese person according to my body fat scale. This is not something I am proud of, but I think it is a result of my liquid diet I did years ago. I lost so much of my muscle and I don't think I ever got any of it back. I also hope that this is a channel for my anxiety. I just can't take being so anxious anymore. I need to burn some of the energy off. If I am tired, I won't have energy to be anxious right? A win win as far as I see it. I will keep you updated.

Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Is it Friday yet?

It is Wednesday. I came down with some kind of stomach flu this weekend, which really sucked! I wish I could of enjoyed my weekend more. Anyway, I made up for not eating that much this weekend yesterday. I was so hungry and hot I had to stop for ice cream after work. There is very little ac at work and the ac in my car broke so it is super hot everywhere. I am a bit annoyed by it. Life is more enjoyable with ac in your car. Oh how I dream of a newer car with air! This week it is 90+ degrees and humid.

So I am reading a new book that I will post a review on as soon as I finish it. I am almost done and will probably finish it tonight. I am still hovering around 185 with my weight. I am hoping to start seeing lower number soon, but I didn't exercise much this week, some of it because I was feeling ill.

Friday, June 19, 2009


It is Friday and I am feeling good about my eating and exercise habits once again. We have gotten back to cooking and things feel less stressful. We went to the dog park last night and walked around instead of laying on the couch! It was super hot and humid but so much fun. I didn't even feel that tired afterward. It is so weird how you can be exhausted after work and think that you can't do anything....then you do something and you have more energy.

I am a little bummed because I forgot my beloved iPhone today. I so wish I could go home and get it. It is such a huge part of my life. I never thought I would be so attached to a phone. I just hope the day goes by fast because I need my phone and I also need the weekend.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Weekends and sleeping and relieving stress

I haven't been around for a while. My life got a little to busy. I was also super stressed. I finally feel like I have had some relaxation time. I did a "Healthy Paws" walk this weekend with my friend and our doggies. We only signed up for the 2 mile walk, but then realized how short it was and decided to keep going and do the 4 miles. It was fun but I was exhausted, mainly because I got up at 6 a.m on a Saturday. After that the bf and I just had a nice relaxing day and ordered pizza for dinner and got 2 movies off of pay-per-view. It was great.

It is Monday and for once I didn't hate the idea of coming to work. I think I needed some down time. I also went for a 4.5 mile interval walk with both doggies last night. I couldn't believe the puppy made it. She ran almost the entire time and was super cuddly and sleepy afterwards. Of course they were both super energetic this morning! I guess I didn't push my older dog to far.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

After Memorial Day weekend

I took some time off around Memorial Day and I was busy. I did not get to sleep in at all and am really tired today. I can't stop yawning. Anyway, I have been trying to get my weight down, but I had a bit of a gain over memorial day. I had a good time with what we ate and tried my best to be as active as I could be. I am hoping for a short week this week! I am taking off to go golfing with the bf on Friday. I hope the weather is nice. I hope I can find some things to post about today.

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Have to make permanent changes

I haven't been posting much at all lately due to stress and being busy. I also just can't seem to get a handle on my eating...and not to blame others, but I have been invited and been the host of too many eating get togethers. I love that Monday is Memorial Day and I get an extra day off from work, but I am hoping I can make some better choices with food on those days. For a belated Mother's Day that we hosted this weekend we made her a chocolate cake (her request) and we just finished it for leftovers. I have been eating a piece everyday with ice cream. This is not a big help with losing or maintaining weight! I also have the added bonus of TOM this week, which also makes my appetite a bit crazy.

I went to the doctor for my annual physical yesterday and I asked her if it is normal for my appetite to increase with an increase of my hypothyroid medication..and she said I shouldn't have a larger appetite. It is weird because when I started the more than double amount of medication to re-regulate my thyroid my appetite went up bigtime. I went from not having much of an appetite to a huge one..eating probably double what I did before. Is this just all in my head? I don't know, but I hope I can get things together once again. A big note to self is that having a healthy lifestyle takes dedication and permanent changes.....permanently!

Friday, May 8, 2009

Not having money does suck

I am happy that it is Friday again. I had Wednesday off, but the week just felt long to me. Anyway, I hope to get a workout in after work today. The bf is going home to let the doggy out so I can eat lunch here and leave at 4. I want to promptly go home and jump on the treadmill for a half hour. I just haven't had the motivation to work out that much this week. I have been doing a lot of yoga because I have been trying to use up my package. It has an expiration date and if you don't use them you loose them.

I also think about how great it would be to join the Y. I would love to have more variety in my exercise..but I just don't have the money. I need to pay off my debt and then get another I feel a little hopeless that I will never have extra money to join. It is kind of expensive to join the Y unless you have a large family. I also have joined gyms in the past and didn't go much. I have been taking a new route home from work to avoid the traffic jam...and I drive right past the Y. Wouldn't it be nice.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

A permanent lifestyle change

I am a little disappointed that I have to weigh in tomorrow. I am going to a baseball game tonight, a party with one of the bf's clients. Of course I am going to eat things I shouldn't and of course I will be eating a dinner full of processed foods, preservatives and probably trans fat. And to add to all of weight will probably be scary tomorrow morning. I am considering a skip on the weigh-in this week..but is that just being in denial or saving me the bad feelings about it?

I also have the day off tomorrow to get some service done on my I just may skip the whole weigh-in just this once. I hate saying or doing it because I am scared that it will lead to me abandoning my weight loss efforts completely. I like being this weight and I am not going to gain! I just have way too many fears because I have gained the weight back before. Uggh, I just need to rebalance myself..and hope that my motivation returns.

Monday, May 4, 2009

Can't I just rewind?

I do feel that my interest has waned in losing additional weight. It seems that I have just not cared about losing..and am just trying to maintain. I know I said this before, but I think I just had too many changes at once in my life. I am still trying to get used to the new office location, the thyroid (not regulated yet) and the puppy. These are not bad things and the move and puppy have enhanced my life in many ways...but I just cannot seem to work up the motivation to start up a weight loss program again. I am hoping in the next month or so I will work up some more motivation. I have to really want to do it and that drive is just not there.

My goal is start jogging more..but what I really need to do is watch the sweets and the portion sizes. It is the food that is really getting me. I am just plain and simply eating too much.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

Weight maintain

I maintained my weight this week but did not lose like I wanted to. I did exercise 5 times this week so I am proud of myself for getting that in and doing my farthest distance this week on the treadmill. I once again need to lose. I am up a lot more than I want to be, so I would like to get well as lose another 10 pounds. I have always wanted that. I really wonder why it isn't happening? I do need to get my thyroid levels checked soon to see if they are in normal range. I have not gone back since my bad level was checked and I needed more medication. I can't believe it has almost been 6 weeks that I have been on the new meds, but I have a lot less anxiety and feel a lot my suspicion is that it is regulated. But I don't know for sure.

Nothing else really all that new except for puppy is in her 12 weeks stage of terror. She was actually quite good last night, I hope that lasts.

Friday, April 24, 2009

Friday, finally.

It is Friday..finally. It is supposed to be 80 degrees today! That would be our first 80 degree day, and I am stuck inside at work. I do plan to go home for lunch and let the puppies out, but I would love to be outside today. Anyways, this week has started out well for exercising. My week starts with Wednesday and I exercised on Wednesday (instead of yoga), and yesterday. I plan on taking this evening off because we usually eat dinner and go grocery shopping on Fridays. I know we lead a very exciting life..but I have to say I really like it. It allows us to have some good meals on weekend and not go out to eat, like we are sometimes tempted to do. It is all about our healthy lifestyle change and eating out is not very healthy..or we rarely pick a healthy choice.

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

It's only Wednesday?

I am back down under 185 again. I wrote down everything I ate last week, but I have to say I didn't exercise as much as I should of. This week is TOM, and I didn't feel all that great the last few days. Things are finally a bit less stressful or I am just getting used to it all! The puppy is really not learning the whole potty training thing lately, which is a bit stressful. She is going to training in a little less than a month. I wish it was sooner, but it was the only classes we could get into. I really hope that helps with things. I know she is a puppy, but some of her behaviors are not good.

My goals for the next week are to continue to write down everything I eat..accountability that I need, and exercising more. I did the minimum this week and I want to do 5 to 6 days of exercise this week. I also want to bring my big dog to the park more, the pups can't go until after she is vaccinated in May.

Monday, April 20, 2009

Sugar is very strange

The weather is finally starting to be nice here and Saturday was great. Unfortunately, it is raining most days this week. Anyway, I had many "treats" this weekend and wondered what my tie was to them while I was eating them. Sometimes I wonder if eating this ice cream is really all that enjoyable? I wonder if I am psychologically addicted to eating sweets because it is just something I have always done? It is all just a thought because I found myself thinking obsessively about candy this weekend while out having fun with the bf. Why did I think about sweets while out having fun? I have no idea. I also gave myself a chance to eat some of the things I was thinking of, and ended up not eating any of it. I think I am going a little crazy lately..or something. It is all so strange. If I end up figuring out my weirdness I will write it here....I need to think about it more.

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Looking for balance

I have gained too much. I really need to buckle down and get this off. I know I can do it! The good thing out of it all is that my measurements remain the same, isn't that weird? My pants are still fitting me, but I do feel a bit bloated in the middle stomach area. I admit that I have been eating too much and I have been using food for stress relief. I have had so many changes in my life lately. I haven't been all that balanced. I am looking to bring balance back into my life and that includes a more balanced weight. I am still getting used to the changes at my job and of course the puppy. We have had her for a little over a week. She is growing and changing constantly and it is stressful when she is naughty or won't listen. Easter was also a challenge since it was Sunday and I had probably eaten all of my flex points plus some by that time. I don't know, because for the last couple of weeks I haven't written down my food intake. This is a super important thing for me. I need to keep track because I always under estimate what I eat. I have been still exercising, but I would like to ramp that up also.

I am trying not to freak out about my weight and to try to just keep the mind set that I can lose it again. It is just going to take some time for me to get used to the changes in my life and let balance come into play.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Vacation and a puppy

I am back, I totally took an impromptu vacation due to the fact that we adopted a puppy! So with the Easter vacation I got from work I took another 3 days off. That was the greatest because I got to spend a lot of time with the puppy. I am okay with being back to work today and I really need to get back into my routine. I wasn't all that great with eating and exercising during my vacation. Even though I had over a week off, exercising was not at the top of my list of things to do. I wish that would of been different but I can't go back and do it over again. I am a little frightened about weighing myself tomorrow, but I will anyway. I have been at really high numbers lately and Sunday didn't help. We made pot roast, Yorkshire pudding and these millionaire shortbread things we saw on food network. They were all butter and very decadent. I am crossing my fingers for my weigh in tomorrow, but even though I will be shocked by the number I know I can get it back off. I can! This article was helpful for me to read from Bob Greene and his Best Life newsletter.

  • Holidays are a treat: Passover and Easter are a time to connect with loved ones and celebrate as a family. But you know what's not so sweet? The sinking feeling that you may have overdone it with chocolate/jelly beans/Matzo balls/[insert other high-calorie indulgence here]. Don't be discouraged! A few days or even a week of less-than-perfect eating won't derail you.

  • Although the scale may inch up during or after a holiday, keep in mind that weight fluctuations are perfectly normal. To gain an actual pound of body fat, you'd have to consume a lot of calories: 3,500 to be exact—and this is on top of what you normally eat in a given day. And even if the number on the scale does climb, that doesn't always mean that you've gained actual body fat. When you step on a scale, you're weighing muscle, bone, body fat, water (one gallon weighs eight pounds), undigested food, and waste that your body hasn't eliminated yet.

  • And don't forget that some foods weigh more, even when they don't provide more calories. For example, one half cup of black beans weighs about three ounces, but one tablespoon of olive oil only weighs about one-half ounce, even though they have the same number of calories. If you eat foods that are "heavier" due to their water or fiber weight, you may weigh more on the scale until all of the food has been digested and the waste has been eliminated.

  • So don't stress about what or how much you ate. Instead, focus on getting back on track with your workouts and healthy-eating plan.

Friday, April 3, 2009

Friday again!

It is Friday and things are a bit quieter this week. I hope by about a month I will be settled in and more relaxed. I went to bed at 9:30 last night, so I feel pretty good today. I do think that is early, but I am finding that I need about 9 hours most of the time. I am also hoping to get a workout in tonight after work.

I haven't been posting every day, but I will try to post as much as I possibly can for myself so that I can continue on my maintenance and hopefully one day...further weight loss. I am completely addicted to nuts lately..namely almonds and just bought a new cereal with almonds in it. I don't know why I all of a sudden like them so much. I just have to be careful not to eat a ton at a time.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

Relax and breath and eliminate stress

Up again with weight and I need to get this under control. The pizza on Sunday did not help and I was so tired last night I didn't work out. I am going to try to de-stress myself and that is my goal for the week. I don't want to be stressed out and constantly worrying about things. I cannot control what happens in my life and I just try my best to be positive. The new department at work seems more stressful, but I do have control over how I react to it. I just need to get used to my surroundings more and I am hoping that my anxiety will subside. I have yoga tonight and I may start doing it more because it is so relaxing.

Monday, March 30, 2009


Change is good, I have to say and it is necessary in life. I try to embrace changes in my life as much as possible. I have to say with change an amount of stress appears for me and causes me to fall back on my big vice of eating. I miscalculated the time it would take to make dinner last night in the slow cooker...dinner didn't get done until 8 p.m. and that is too late for us to eat. So what did we do? We ordered pizza, and they had a deal with bread sticks..and we both overate. I am still full this morning and it is very uncomfortable. I still ate breakfast and had my latte, but I am feeling out of sorts. I did exercise for an hour last night after pizza and it gave me a lot
of energy. I could lift a lot more and jog more. I understand that food is energy now like no other time in my life. I really hope I am not scarily up in weight this week from this pizza slip up. I had already eaten all of my flex points and didn't have many left for the day when I ate it. I really want to get back on track and I am glad I feel less tired and stressed this morning. I know I just need to give it some time.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

Slowly posting

My week has been really crazy and I am still hoping to get to back to normal with things. I am up in weight, but I definitely have been more active at work. It is also TOM and this is pretty normal for me. I have had a pretty good appetite this week comparatively to the last month. I wonder if a more regulated thyroid (guess) makes you have a bigger appetite? I will have to look that one up in Google. I am going to do yoga tonight and I am always really excited about it..mainly because I feel so good afterwards.

Monday, March 23, 2009


I officially moved my office and I have to say I really like it. I do need to put up some more things, but the lighting is better and it is cozier because it is so much smaller. I also work along side with a lot more people, not just one. I kind of like that also. I do my same job, which I like also. I was able to get in some workouts this weekend and my weight lifting was not nearly as hard as it was the last couple of weeks, so I definitely think my thyroid is better balanced now. I am going to try to get back to normal as much as I possibly can now. I hope my work schedule doesn't increase too much as a result of moving, but today I like it.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Trying to get back to normal

So I somehow lost a little weight this week, probably due to stress. I finally have gotten on a higher thyroid medication and I feel much better. It is strange to actually feel more awake. I think this needs adjusting to...and my appetite really came back for me last night. I went to Moe's and had chips with queso and a chicken quesadilla..and I actually was able to eat the entire thing. I haven't been able to eat much lately, which I liked..but I don't know if it was stress or the thyroid thing that made that happen. Anyway I am hoping my life starts to calm down soon and I can get into a routine again. It is strange how routine can be so boring, but it is actually less stressful. I like boring.

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Thyroid out of whack again

I got a blood test last week Friday to monitor my thyroid levels and it indeed came back that I have too high of levels. I have to start taking more medication and be evaluated for it. I hope getting the proper dose will start to make me have more energy and feel less anxious. I just haven't been feeling good lately and I am glad that it has been proven to me that there was something going on. I am also glad that I recognized it enough to go in for a blood test.

I feel tired all day and I am completely tired right now. I long for this to go away. Anyway, I am going to pick up my new medication tonight and hope to feel better soon. I so need some energy and I am sick of sleeping 12 to 14 hours a day. I need some kind of life.

Thursday, March 12, 2009


I started back again at yoga last night and boy do I feel sore. I also fell asleep for the first time ever (just for a second) during savasana. All the times I have done yoga and I have done a lot of it...I have never fallen asleep. All I know is that I was dreaming about something funny that I was laughing about...I just hope I didn't laugh out loud during class. Anyway, I am going to try to call my doctor today to get another blood test for my thyroid levels. I have been so tired lately that I have been sleeping around 12 hours a day/night with naps, etc. I feel so exhausted and at first I thought it was the time change, but the bf told me last night that he thought I was sleeping too much and that I should get my levels checked. I also am very sore all the time, super cold to the point of shivers, and it all makes sense that that could be out of whack again. I think I will also request a pre-diabetes test also. Diabetes runs in my family, so it is always good for me to know what is up with that. Anyways, I still am very stressed..but I am hoping I can get that to go away soon. I just want to feel like my normal self again...and I will do anything to get back there! I am also looking forward to a fun weekend with the family.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Learning to manage stress better

I usually do not have any trouble with sleeping. I often thought I had a gift of sleeping well and soundly every night. Lately, I haven't been sleeping all that well. I think it caught up with me last night. I felt pretty exhausted while watching tv and thought I would just take a small nap. I ended up taking a 3 hour nap, then getting up and going to bed at 10 and sleeping the whole night through. I feel very well rested now. I think I have gotten too much sleep. I am happy about it, but I didn't get any exercise in last night and I went far over with my points. In times of stress I don't try to lose weight, I just try to maintain. I hope I can maintain this week but it is looking like I will have a slight gain. The kind of gain I have every other week. I have been in this pattern of losing 2 pounds, gaining 2 pounds...losing a pound....etc.

It is pretty frustrating that I was doing so well with exercising, then suddenly encountered stress that has completely thrown me off. I just wish I dealt with stress better. My goal apart from living a healthy lifestyle with eating well and exercising is now finding ways of dealing with stress better. I think yoga is a great step towards reducing my stress..but I have to admit that it is expensive. I am not sure if I can afford to do it always and that is what stops me from practicing it on a regular basis. I have tried to do yoga books and dvds on my own, but the only true method for me is doing it at a class. Other ways I am reducing my stress is by making more of an effort to pay down my debt. Those two things are what I have now...and I hope to find more ways in the future. I hope that these two things alone help me to grow more as a person and deal with stress in a more constructive way. I will never be perfect, but I always find the need for growth.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Stressful times and learning to relax

Wow, it has been kind of a crazy week for me. My exercising has been suffering a bit from the stress and anxiety of everything. My office is moving to another department at work and it is not an explained decision, but it does make sense. I am going to go back to yoga for some anxiety control and well-being. Yoga is probably the best thing for me mentally when I am having a hard time relaxing. The weather has been much better here and that helps with well-being as well. I am hoping to do a 45 minute workout tonight and try and get back on track with my exercising. Maybe I will do yoga...hmm.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Self compassion

I found this really good article today while looking at FitSugar. It is about having more compassion for yourself while trying to lose weight and be healthy. I think it is definitely something that helped me because I stopped looking at a diet plan so strictly and started to give myself less guilt about messing up. I started looking at weight watchers as just the way your supposed to eat, with treats thrown in on occasion or even regularly, if I choose to do so (like at Christmas). I then try to get back to eating healthfully after a period of time. It feels good to eat good and that good feeling goes away when your not eating healthy and exercising. I am used to feeling good and I know what it feels like to feel good...and keeping that feeling around is super important to me.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Better this week

I am down this week 2.4 pounds. I really think I had a lot of water weight last week with the cortisone shot and TOM. I did do well exercising this week and did 5 days of 45 minute workouts. I pushed myself hard to jog and walk fast and made my goal of 3 miles in 45 minutes this week. I feel a lot better, more fit and my foot is feeling good also. I want to continue the 45 minute workouts and continue to up my intensity. I am used to doing 45 minute workouts now, I do a 30 minute treadmill on my weight training day. I did okay with eating this week, but I didn't write down what I ate on Saturday and Sunday. That is the third week in a row that I have done that. I would like to get better about it. I just have so much fun on those days, that the last thing I want to do is to get out my journal and write down what I ate. But I should, because I still have weight to lose.

Monday, March 2, 2009

Good excercising

I had a pretty good weekend, but it was not long enough. I also got some good exercise in on Saturday and Sunday. I have been super addicted to nuts this week, it is quite strange but I was craving them. I love pecans way too much. They have more fat than almonds, but taste so much better. I just wish I would incorporate walnuts in, and in something besides brownies and ice cream. Chocolate has also been a big craving. I hate cravings, if I just could not have them I wouldn't have any kind of weight problem. I just crave sweets.

Friday, February 27, 2009

I like excercise, I just don't love it

It is Friday! I just love the weekends because I love relaxing and sleeping in. I did exercise last night and I am very tired this morning. It was really hard for me to get up. I have been trying to push myself more on the treadmill because I started slower than usual to work myself up to 45 minutes. My stamina just wasn't there until now. I don't know if it is sad or not that an extra 15 minutes of exercise made me super sore and tired for a couple of weeks. I guess I would of thought an hour would do that, not 15 minutes. I guess it is whatever the body is used to. My body likes to increase at slower friend went from no activity to running 4 miles in an hour. I don't think I would or could do that, it sounds like torture. I have to say I enjoyed my workout last night and I have been enjoying it. I didn't think I could renew my interest in exercise. I had a hard time exercising 30 minutes and walking during Christmas. So weird how things wax an wane. I now have dreams of running or feel like my body just needs to move. I am sure I could stop exercising at this point but I don't want to..and that is a great thing!

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Mouse wheel

I am super hungry today, not sure why but I am trying to fill myself up with some wholesome foods. I have been eating cereal for a snack, mainly because it has a good mix of protein, fat and carbs. Anyway, not much to report except for trying to continue with my healthy week and not go over in points. I got my hair cut last night so I didn't exercise. I hope to do it tonight...but not sure if I will do it until Friday. I don't have to cook tonight..I should..uggh. I am trying to do at least 5 less, but more if I can. 6 days is best, but hard to fit in. It is getting easier to do the 45 minutes than it was before and somehow I feel a bit more fit. My foot is starting to feel a lot better, it just is sore after my workouts...but I can deal with that.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Frustration may be at its highest level

I am up this week. I had my cortisone shot in my foot and I only got in 3 days of excercise. I also have TOM this week. This makes a big difference in my week. I may also just start to be in maitaining mode because trying to lose weight is starting to make me crazy. I am torn between wanting to lose and knowing that it is going to take a lot of reform just to lose 5 pounds. I know it may sound like a cop out, but perhaps this is a weight my body is happy with. I really don't want it to be that way, but unfortunately my weight isn't budging much no matter what I do. I am proud that I am now doing 45 minute workouts and they don't make me feel sore and horrible. I also added more fruit and cut way down on my candy/sugar intake. If those things don't produce weight loss, I am at a loss as to what to do. I think I am making healthy lifestyle changes that should produce results..but I know everyday I am getting healthier and it is good. I just ask my body why these things are not enough for it to let go of this extra 10 pounds? I am frustrated and I will just try again this week and every week to come...but it is just hard.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Life and its little ups and downs

I was feeling bad yesterday. I messed up our dinner and added the wrong we had to go get Jimmy Johns. I have never done that before. I guess I was having a really bad day and didn't know it until I got home. I have to say it is hard to get out of the blahs. I don't always snap right back, but I attribute this snap back to my 45 minute interval walk last night. I actually started feeling better while I was on the treadmill. There have been so many studies done that say exercise is a natural antidepressant, and I believe it. But it is also my TOM starting today/tomorrow, so maybe it is a hormone surge or something. So strange when your feeling good most of the time to have a really bad day where you can't think and you can't get out of a bad mood. I so hate those days. I also still am dealing with a hurt foot, so that puts me in a bad mood because my foot hurts bad after getting off the treadmill..but I felt so good I didn't care yesterday.

Monday, February 23, 2009

Winter blues

I haven't felt like posting or even journaling my food intake lately. I think the whole foot injection thing really threw me off with things. I just haven't had any energy and haven't felt good for the last week. The bruises are finally healing though and it is feeling better..but it just isn't great yet. I did buy some new jogging shoes, but those are not broken in so they are bothering me a bit too. Uggh, and the went away and now it is back. Yuck. I really cannot wait for better weather, except it starts raining big time when the snow is gone and that isn't much fun either...but at least it isn't freezing. I am starting to feel like I am just trying to get through it, the weather. I miss having a March vacation and I am really staring to feel burned out. I hope I start feeling a bit better.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Foot feeding

My foot is feeling much better today. I have been really resting and elevating it. I did nothing but lay on the couch last night with my foot up. It is nice to step and not feel pain and aching. I am hoping to resume exercise either on Friday or Saturday, but I am in need of replacing my shoes. They are now a year old and really do not have much padding or support left. With my feet, I need to replace them more than that....I need to remember to go pick up a pair on Friday. I just hate how expensive they are, but it is a needed investment.

Anyway, I didn't have a great day with eating yesterday because it was raining and I was craving chocolate chip cookies. I dipped into my flex points a little more than I wanted to, but luckily I do not think we are eating out at all this week. So it should be fine.

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Don't take excercise for granted

I have say excercise is a good thing and helps in weight control. I managed to actually lose weight this week, even though I didn't eat all that well. I went overboard on Valentines Day to a point of uncomfortable fullness, but I excercised 45 minutes 5 days last week and my weight is down. I really wasn't expecting it, but I am happy about it. This makes me think that my body likes 45 minutes and is willing to perhaps let go of some weight if I work out for that time. Who knows? I will try to see what happens next week.

I just got a cortisone shot in my foot yesterday, so excercising has to take a little break this week. It is still quite sore today.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Learning to know when to stop

Wow, I learned something new this weekend. I think drinking somehow makes you able to eat more or not recognize that you are full already. I had 2 glasses of wine at dinner out and I knew I was full..but not as full as I felt 2 hours later, the rest of the night and the day after. I must of ate a lot more than I thought and the wine made me not realize it. I am not trying to blame overeating on wine, but I really thought that I wasn't THAT full. I have not been that uncomfortable in a long time. Sleeping was almost impossible and I had what I think was acid reflux. I am not kidding. Just one meal was enough to make me feel ill. I guess my body isn't used to that. I think I probably should stay away from the alcohol when going out to eat next time. I love a good glass of wine on occasion, but I have to learn some kind of lesson from our Saturday meal. We were both stuffed to the gills with food and that made for an uncomfortable night. I guess our eyes are still bigger than our stomachs when we dine out. I am grateful that we cook low fat healthy meals at home, otherwise we would of been gaining the whole time we have been together. We simply eat more and go way more overboard when dining out together. I am afraid to weigh myself this week..uggh.

Friday, February 13, 2009


I didn't post yesterday and I couldn't think of anything I wanted to post today except for Happy Valentines Day! I am excited to go out for a romantic dinner tomorrow night with the bf. Hoping I don't eat too much food and chocolate, and just try to enjoy myself.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Up 1.8

I had a gain this week and I deserved it. I was sick and did not cook or exercise much last week. I hope to reverse most of this next week, but I have been having pain in my foot and really tight calf muscles. I hope to start feeling better soon with that also. So many things come into play with a healthy lifestyle and it is a lot of work sometimes, but I try to make it my habit or the way things are usually. I think that helps because I am so a creature of habit and routine.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

Weather, foot, gain...uggh!

We are having some sort of a warm-up this week here. It is currently 48 degrees, but it feels like 43 according to the Weather Channel. Michigan weather is so weird every year. Anyway, it is supposed to get colder during the end of this week..I just wish it would stay when it warms up. It is like a cruel trick. You get used to the slightly warmer weather and it gets cold again and it feels super cold..because your not used to it anymore.

Anyway, my foot issue (ganglion cyst) is acting up again so I have to go in for another cortisone shot. This is one of the most painful things I have to do regularly. It makes me cry and scream and squirm. In the long run though, it makes my foot feel good. I just have to take that first few days off from exercising because I can't feel my foot. I am hoping for an okay weigh-in Wednesday morning (I just hope it isn't really bad). I worked really hard the week before last and if I went back up to 185 I may cry. But if I did, I will get it down again...right? Right.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Oh crap

Wow, I have been sick. I got a super bad cold and the bf got a cold plus a sinus infection and he had to go to the hospital. All that feeling bad led to a lack of cooking and exercise for this week, which I am disappointed about since I was doing so well. We had to order out because both of us were to sick to cook. So it was pizza, Chinese and fast food for most of the week. We then made a super filling dinner last night and I had no idea what the calories were but I was super full from it. Uggh, it is not easy to eat well unless you have the time and health to cook for yourself. Anyway, I am hoping to reverse some of this this week and from now on. I am sure I will have a gain this week and I am bummed. Bummed about a lot of things right now. I just gotta keep going and doing the things I need to do.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Down 1.4 and a little grumpy today

I haven't been in a great mood today but I am down 1.4 pounds this week. I am happy about that and the 45 minute workouts are giving me results. I am a little sore, but I am hoping that will go away soon. That seems like the only downside..well, besides the extra time. If this helps me get past my 180 plateau, it is worth it to me. I am super hungry already and it isn't even noon yet. The sun is shining which is good, so I am hoping I can cheer up a bit this afternoon. I went to bed last night before 9 p.m. because I didn't feel good and was really sore. This somehow made me feel grumpy.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Sore throat

The bf is super sick and I think I am coming down with something now. I felt fine this weekend, but now I am getting a sore throat. I have been doing really great this week and did 45-60 minute workouts all week. My right calf muscle is super sore, which kind of sucks. I am taking today off from exercising and it is a good thing since I am feeling a bit ill and the soreness. The only thing I hate from exercising more is the soreness. I know the soreness is good though because it means I am getting stronger. I have also done really well with the cutting down on candy although I felt a bit too full from the pb smoothie I had last night. I think there was too much oil in it because I used a new natural pb and it always has that top of oil. I maybe didn't stir it as good as I should of. Anyway I am off to be productive, I hope.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Just a quick post

It is Monday and the bf has been sick all weekend. I also have way too much work to do. I feel stressed and sore from working out a lot this week. I wish I could relax a bit more. I am trying. I really hope I don't get sick from the bf. We pretty much stayed away from each other all weekend. I have been doing quite well this week and weekend and hope to get in another 45 minute workout tonight...even though my back is quite sore from all the inclines.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Fridays are almost always good days

Today is Friday! I am so has been a long week and I wasn't sure I would get through it without taking time off. I have been stressed because of the people around me are stressed. I cannot help but get stressed with that. I know it isn't my stress but the bf being stressed effects me the most. I don't like it when he isn't happy or content. I did great with eating yesterday and the bf and I ate or first salad for dinner. Yes we have never made a salad for dinner, but I have to say we both enjoyed it and would eat it again. It was just a classic chicken salad and we ate 1/2 pound of chicken on it each. It was 8 points, which isn't so bad and we put it atop spinach leaves mixed with some romaine. I then had my usual hot cocoa with ff milk for desert. I am going to try to get in my 45 minute interval walk before the bf gets home today. I feel really good today and not sore at all. I don't like being super sore and I try not to push myself to that level because it just isn't comfortable. I like to push myself in small increments and being a little sore is more of what I try to achieve on a regular basis.

Thursday, January 29, 2009

45 minutes

Once again it is dark and snowy and just awful weather here. It is really getting depressing. Last night I increased my workout time to 45 minutes and really pushed myself. I am a bit sore today, but it wasn't that bad. I am hoping I can get used to doing just 15 minutes more. Why does that seem like more when you are on the treadmill? Anyway, I made a deal with myself that if I workout at a good pace and follow up with stretching and abs I can count 4 activity points for it. I have been wanting to do this for quite a while now, I just got lazy. I just hope I can keep it up. If not I will just go back to 30 minutes. I don't want to dread my workouts or not want to workout because of anything I add. I just read so much about how you should workout an hour a day and I think I am in good enough shape now to do that. We shall see how it goes and of course I will report anything on here that I do. It is so great to look back at this all.

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Increase intensity/duration of workouts

I maintained this week which is a bit surprising to me, but it is my TOM this week so water gain might of been why my weigh-in yesterday was 185. I don't know how else to explain it, but I am glad that it went back down. I did work hard this week so I think I deserved to lose, but it will just take me some time to get going again. I just keep trying and not gaining is always my goal. There are a few pair of jeans I want to wear in my closet that still don't fit me. I would love to wear them this summer and about 10 pounds would probably get me in them. I want to lose the 10 pounds slowly though and make small improvements in my diet and exercise so that I can maintain it. This week my goal is either to work out harder or extend my time of workouts to 45 minutes. I don't have to go crazy with it, just do some more interval jogs or add 15 minutes.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009


I am a bit frustrated with losing weight this week. It is my TOM, which I can blame it on...but I got on the scale today and I was back up to 185. I have been eating really healthy...I haven't went over on points...I haven't been eating candy, cakes, sugar. I exercised 5 days this week already. I guess I don't really know what is up with that? I could also attribute it to my thyroid not being regulated. I do need to check that. Hmmm. I just really hate being stuck and not being able to get unstuck. I wouldn't change anything with the holiday eating, but I gained this 5 pounds and it is really annoying because it doesn't seem to want to come off. I have been really happy with my eating is just such a shame. All I can do is to keep trying and hope it will eventually come down.

Monday, January 26, 2009


I had a good weekend, but I didn't get my full Sunday rest day that I usually do. I am kind of tired today as well as really hungry. I usually don't get hungry until after 10 a.m., so I guess it is just one of those days. I hope the work day goes fast so I can relax at home tonight. The most exciting thing is that on Friday we got our satellite dish back. I was so happy and got caught up on the shows I missed..for the most part.

Friday, January 23, 2009

Excessively tired

I am so tired right now. I have been sleeping more lately and I don't really know why. I fell asleep during the office show last night, our antenna is working so we now have 8 and 13, but I was so excited to get to watch it...then I fell asleep. I went to bed at 10 p.m. once I woke back up again. I slept through the entire night and then could hardly get out of bed. I am still tired now. Uggh. I hate being tired.

If it continues I think I will get my thyroid re-checked. I am hypo-thyroid and I usually get it tested 2x a year anyway. I did get a work out in last night...but not a very strenuous one or anything, one that would lead to being this tired. I really hope the sun comes out today, I would love to see it. I am excited for the weekend because we are going out for sushi and seeing a movie. I love doing that!

Thursday, January 22, 2009

TV is an addiction

It has actually warmed up a bit to the 20s this morning. Yes that is warm for Michigan, especially when it has been below zero for most of the last couple of weeks. It is strange but it feels almost like the first 70 degree day in the spring or something. Anyway, our satellite tv dish is still out with the big snowball on the lens (and too high to get off) I haven't watched any tv in 3 days. I actually realize that I have a lot of time to do other things, not that I don't like having the option of watching tv. I just have been getting a lot of other things done with my time after work. I always thought I was just too tired and now I am realizing I really am not.

So perhaps not having tv is a blessing in disguise? I don't know, I do miss certain shows but I am getting used to not having it. Don't get me wrong I still want it..just maybe I can watch less.

Wednesday, January 21, 2009


I lost 1.2 pounds this week. I have really been trying to get back on track with healthier eating and cutting down on candy/sugar. It is tough, but I do feel better without the sugar highs and lows lately. I just need to find some alternatives that stick and I am not sure if I have found them yet..but I will keep trying. I am pretty hungry for lunch right now so I am going to cut my post short a bit.

Tuesday, January 20, 2009

Inauguration day

It is inauguration day. I am so happy that Obama is taking office. It is exciting, but it is hard to enjoy at work. However, I downloaded a streaming npr news app on my phone. I am listening to the events on it. Also, our satellite tv is down because of snow and ice covering it. The bf says this is the first time this has happened. I kind of wanted to watch the inauguration events at 9 p.m. tonight...but I don't think I will be able to. Last night I only watched tivo'd shows then I worked out. I have to say it is nice to unwind after work with tv. I also love so many of the shows on Monday and Tuesday nights. I am bummed, even though I know I can find a myriad of other things to do.

I have been weighing myself often this week and have also been trying hard to cut down on the candy and sugary snacks. For some reason it isn't going down as much as I thought it would. But at least it is going downwards. We shall see on Wednesday morning. I know I have lost, but I guess you always just want more.

Monday, January 19, 2009


It is Monday and really cold, but a little sunny. Sun is good. The weekend did not last long enough for me, so I have a little case of the Mondays. On the other hand I have been trying to cut down on sugar and have been doing pretty well at substituting healthier things for my candy bars. I love smoothies and have been doing those. I have been making the peanut butter banana one lately. It is quite filling..that makes up for it being 6 points. I also purchased pudding, because I figure calcium is much more healthy than candy as well. I have been trying to exercise more, but on Saturday it just didn't happen thanks to Rock Band 2.

So I am hoping I am down from the 185 weight I got up to last week. I feel a bit better and I just continue to work on things. I still wish I was going on vacation to a warm, sunny place...but oh well. Next year. It is better to save the money.

Friday, January 16, 2009


I had plans to get up early on Thursday and Friday and exercise, but of course I didn't do it. I have been really tired lately and mistakenly drank a triple shot tall latte Wednesday night too close to bed. I could not sleep at all and resulted in a zombie mode on Thursday and extra exhaustion last night. They offered me the extra shots for free..I couldn't turn them down. I wish I would of.

Anyway, the below zero cold spell is supposed to let up this weekend. It will then be back to the 20s and then the week after that, the 30s. Woo hoo. I am so looking forward to 40s, 50s...and up. No snow would be nice also. I plan on exercising when I get home today because I don't have to cook. The only thing I don't like about that is being sweaty when the bf gets home. There are way to many excuses for me not to exercise. The thing that it makes me feel better and sleep better. I know it is good for me and I do want to do it. It was just making a good time for it this week that has been a problem.

I just have to keep wanting to make changes. I am still trying to cut down on sugar period. I have done okay...but yesterday I had a lunch out and ate a cookie bar thing. It wasn't that good either. I am thinking of trying that new Truvia sweetner in my smoothies..I wonder if it is good or somewhat okay for you. I think I will read up on it.

Thursday, January 15, 2009


I think this is just the time of year for stress. Not only is the weather crap but people are under pressure for all kinds of things...including getting their taxes done soon. For some reason the bf has more work than he could possibly do at his job and that is really stressing him out. I have been trying to weather the stress storm, trying to not use food as a coping mechanism, trying to exercise. Why does all this stuff require so much darn effort? Why am I not one of those people these things come naturally for? Anyway, I am just taking things day by day and trying to keep a good attitude about it all.

I have a department lunch today and then a birthday celebration later. I really hope I don't overdo it. I am making something healthy for dinner tonight...and I am really looking forward to it. The weekend cannot come soon enough!

Wednesday, January 14, 2009

Warning signs

I am quite unhappy with this week's numbers. I think I took the week for granted a bit and just thought my weight would settle in the downward phase. Well, it didn't. I really need to watch my portion sizes and my sugar consumption. I didn't go crazy eating, but obviously I ate to much and exercised to little. I also wasn't good with drinking my water. I really need to re-motivate myself again so that I can loose this 5 pounds I gained. I am disappointed, but this is my wake-up call to push myself more with exercise and eat better. I am not going to blame anyone but myself for this. I know I did not go over in calories this week by 6, in a way the weight isn't all real. But that number means I have to work harder at it to get it down. I know I can do it! I know I can lose 5 pounds.

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Snow go away

It has been busy this morning. I wasn't feeling well yesterday so I stayed home from work. I have been having stomach issues. I don't know if it is something I ate or a bug. Anyways, I have been trying to eat a lot of basic foods for the stomach. I snacked on saltines all day yesterday, not sure if that was a good thing...since I didn't drink any water hardly with them. I am hoping I can get things back to normal today with eating and not suffer too much. So far so good. I am also hoping to get in some exercise tonight, since I wasn't up to it yesterday.

I read something interesting this morning. Bob Greene is coming to the Meijer down the street from my house. I guess only the first 350 people there get to meet him. I am sure it will be mobbed. That sounds so boring for him since the airport is within 15 minutes of the Meijer so he will not get to see much of the city. Oh well, it is super snowy and cold today and we are supposed to get hit with another blizzard this afternoon. It is getting so depressing to have so much snow. I feel like my mood has changed so much from last week to this week. I am still in a relatively good mood, but not like last week. I blame the snow...go away!

Friday, January 9, 2009

Chocolate dreams

I am glad it is Friday. I could hardly get up today..and my good mood is starting to slip a bit. It is so hard to be in a good mood when everyone around you is in a bad mood. I hate that, it always ruins it for me. I think most people in Michigan in the winter are always in a bad mood. Maybe the lack of sun does that to them. I don't know where my good mood came from, but I think it was the 2 1/2 weeks of Christmas vacation I had. That was so great. I needed a good long break like that. I am a little sad that we are not going on vacation this year..but it will be relieving that we won't have to be broke either. It is hard to recover financially from our vacations, we need to start saving for them..or at least I do.

My desire to cut down on sugar is working quite well. Since I had extra points last night I ate 1 1/2 sloppy joe's (have brown sugar & ketchup in them though) instead of just one....and I was so full I couldn't even think about desert. I hope I can continue...but I love love love chocolate and keep dreaming about it.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

Slip of the mind

It is Thursday..almost Friday. This week went fast for me and I was in the best mood ever...probably because of my long vacation. It is really snowy and cold here, but I think I may be getting used to it. I just wish it wasn't so dark. I excercised last night and hardly remembered that I did this morning when I went to write it down in my journal. That is so strange..perhaps it was to easy or something.

Anyways, I have been trying to not push myself to do things I don't want to do. It can taking down the Christmas tree. It is so pretty, so why not leave it up a little longer?

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Best life week

I had a better weigh in this week. I was seriously worried about last week, I was way up. Probably some of that was attributed to TOM though also...but I am on the right track. I have to say I have been watching Oprah's best life week and I do like the attention it gives to getting healthy. It is rubbing off on me slightly..for I have been trying hard to cut down on my sugar intake. I know it is not good for me, and I have been acting like a total sugar addict. I had a fruit smoothie for desert last night and it was delicious.

I am going to try to have a protein with my desert and see how well I do with that. I know I can fight this sugar problem. The main reason is that I want to ward off any possibility of diabetes.

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Diet crazies

I have been in a very good mood lately. I think that the January diet craze is effecting me positively. I have been watching Food Network and they have healthy cooking on it all week. I also have been watching healthy cooking shows on FitTV and Discovery Health. Both the bf and I have so many ideas on what we want to cook, we are planning our weekends around it. I heard that most people don't gain all that much around the holidays. They gain around 2 pounds on average, and it is important to get that off...but 2 pounds causes all those diet commercials to spam the tv like crazy? I guess I don't really get it...but I have never been a resolution type of person. If I want to loose weight there is usually no right time for me to do it. I just do it whenever I can. I started losing weight I think around July in 2007.

I have to remind myself that eating snacks between meals is a good thing for me. Yesterday I had two snacks during the day after breakfast and lunch and didn't go home hungry. I actually ate less at dinner and didn't crave a big desert. Eat snacks..who cares if you go home with less points!

Monday, January 5, 2009

Back to routines

I am back and had a wonderful holiday vacation. I so needed that. I feel so relaxed now, I am hoping to stay this way...forever. Anyway, I got a lot done. I painted the bedroom and it looks lovely, I am now looking for curtains and new lamps to add well as a little bit of decor. I look at the painted room with pride in my painting skills. I actually think I am pretty good at it.

Anyway, I ate a lot during the holidays. Is that a surprise? I also didn't journal, but am back to it now. I also did my Wednesday weigh-ins on both weeks. The second week number scared me and I hope this week it is better. I have gotten back to my regular exercise routine as well. I am not worried about what I gained and I have no regrets, not even with all the sugar cookies I ate! I know that I can loose this extra weight and get on with things.

I am not into resolutions, but I would like to lose 5 pounds. That is my goal and when I get there, I may want to loose another 5 pounds..who knows? I am just happy that the holiday eating is over...I just wish my vacation wasn't.