Optimists

okay, I have to admit I am a little nervous about my scale reading tommorow. I have gone over my points a little here and there during this week. I had a hard week struggling with my food craving demons. One thing I vowed when I started this blog is that I can never lie to it.

On the plus side I was a lot more active this week then I usually am. I did leaves at my house (that is for sale) and helped at my new house on Saturday. I also took my doggy to the doggy park on Sunday for 2 hours, then went bowling. I usually work out on weekends, but am not that busy. I was so tired yesterday but I still did my workout for an hour. I am glad I went to bed at 9:30 last night, I feel much better today.

So all of those good things help to make this a little better of a week for me. I know I am getting healthier and being more active, but...I just wonder what the scale is going to say. I have been doing so well I am a little scared that I will be hard on myself if I gain. I want to get under 190 so bad. I know it is the Holidays...but I just want to keep losing.

My cruise is coming up in March and I want to be successful in losing to look good in my swimsuit. I hope I don't put too much pressure on myself and go crazy eating. I have to be nice to myself, I have to be optimistic.