Rainy Mondays

So I don't have a topic for today, but will still write. That is the point of a blog isn't it?

It is a rainy Monday and we had a fire drill this morning at work. I went out because I could not stand listening to the bell thingy. Anyway, when I went out I was not embarrassed or hiding my fat body...I actually felt confident and good about myself. I did not cover up in a coat, I just went out. This is a big one for me, I usually feel a little ashamed about my fatness, but I feel fit and my weight loss has made me much more confident. I am aware that I still need to loose, but it is so nice to feel proud of yourself. Sometimes I mistake confidence for having a big ego or being conceited. I no longer think that, if you think your hot..go ahead and think it I won't fault ya. Women are strange about this, and tend to get jealous...why is that?

Anyway, I have to say I have been inspired lately by reading my usual round of blogs. Especially, one I got from Roni's blog to another blog about perfectionism. I do think that was my problem when I was in Weight Watchers before. I did look at it like a crash diet. I wanted to see how much I could loose in the shortest amount of time. That made me do crazy things like starve myself or not have things I was craving. Now, if I ate my points for the day and am still hungry, I usually have a glass of chocolate milk or a snack. I should not go to bed uncomfortably hungry. That sucks and makes it seem like a crash diet. This is a lifestyle change for me, not torture.

The craving thing is a little strange. My cravings are changing, which I never thought would happen. I do crave sweets still...but I don't eat the quantity. I still have the desire, but I had to change my approach to it. I tell myself a serving or two is enough. If I have more I will have to deal with weight gain and that is not worth it.

Enough about eating..It is making me hungry.