Monday, April 7, 2008

Good post

Okay, so Saturday and Sunday were the nicest days we have had so far in Michigan. They were a bit breezy, sunny and warm enough to enjoy being outside. These nice days always get me thinking about ice cream shops. Now, I realize that ice cream hurts my stomach...but that didn't stop me yesterday.

I usually go grocery shopping with the bf, but I went on Sunday instead without him. I passed on ice cream the first shopping trip and came home. I then realized at about 5 p.m. that I didn't have shallots for the chicken I wanted to I went back to the grocery store. What did I buy? Ice cream and not the light kind. I bought Edy's peanut butter cup. It has 3 points a half a cup. I made and ate a healthy dinner...then opened up the ice cream and had myself an eating bonanza of 1 1/2 cups of the stuff.

I waited about an hour after I ate all of that, then worked out for an hour. I guess I kind of felt a bit guilty for going over 9 points for the day...but I really wanted it. Not until I went to bed did I realize what it was about to do to my stomach. I woke up at 3 a.m. with really sharp, hot pains in my stomach. I could not sleep and felt horrible. My throat was sore too. Why don't I ever learn my lesson about ice cream? Why do I continue to put myself in such agony?

I really wanted it. I used to eat ice cream everyday. I rarely have it now. Can I give it up entirely? I don't think that will ever happen. All I can do is remember that awful feeling and remind myself before I go and feast on it. I don't think I am lactose intolerant...because I drink milk and eat cheese all the time and that doesn't bother me. So strange...but maybe it is a gift to keep me somewhat away from it.

Anyway, the scale has been up all I am not sure if I am going to get a lose this week. I think I may be heading for a 28 pointer week next week. They seem to help me re-motivate myself.

I want to thank Roni for a great post, you should read is about motivation to lose weight after you have lost some, but are not to your goal.


Roni said...

Thanks for the link! It's nice to know I'm not the only one with demons! LOL Althuogh instead of ice cream it was a bag of nacho chips for me.
Chin up, it's a new day tomorrow!

Estellia said...

Hi Roni, I have a co-worker with the same issues. We both fight to keep our weight down. I do notice that I turn to food quite often for just about every emotion. I wish scientists could figure out how to retrain the brain to not care about food. I guess weight might be an enigma. Have you seen Carnie Wilson?